One thing was laid heavy on my heart the last few months of 2010. It was the fact that God had placed so much on my heart throughout the year. So many things that I felt convicted to do. But one thing was wrong. I wasn't moving. I felt the nudge...but I stood still. And it made me ashamed and sick to my stomach to think about it. I even had the nerve to exclaim that God just wasn't talking to me. Ever been there?
Maybe it was laziness. Maybe it was not knowing where to begin. Sometimes I'm like that. I get so indecisive that I freeze and don't make a decision at all. Well with 2011, I've decided that I'm putting a stop to not moving. I'm refusing to let God's convictions on my heart to stop there. I'm ready to move.
Within the last couple years I've really learned a lot about trusting God's will. To lay it all out there and pray like crazy for God to open doors and move mountains. I prayed so often in the past, "Lord, let your will be done." I've prayed for God to show me the way, for God to make His will known, for God to put certain things in my life or take things away. But what I've most recently learned through tons of reflection and studying the bible, is that I haven't been taking the leap. That scary leap of faith. And maybe even worst, I haven't been completely trusting that my humble prayers can honestly move mountains if I just believe and trust.
Jesus replied, "I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and it will be done. If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."
In the first week of 2011, I have probably taken more leaps of faith than maybe all of 2010. I'm turning a new page. When I pray, I'm praying boldly and praying knowing and believing wholeheartedly that God will answer. That He will move what seems like mountains in my life. So far, after much prayer, I have taken two huge leaps of faith...and the peace in my heart is possibly an answer to prayer within itself. These steps have opened my eyes to God's amazing, passionate love for me. Me. And His attention to every. single. detail in my life. I am overjoyed as I pray and wait on God...wait to see just what mountains He moves. And wait to take the next leap of faith.
How has God moved mountains in your life? What has He taught you so far this year?