Change is something I've never been good with. I fight it. Wrestle it to the ground. And if possible, I avoid it at all cost. However, do you ever notice that as you get older and wiser, you realize that things you used to despise and not be so great at become easier and less a part of you?
My fear and dread for change is one of those. I feel like a big girl saying that I honestly am learning how to accept change. I don't fear it so much anymore. I think it's just because change is unavoidable. It happens. You have to deal with it and face it head on. And it becomes less scary.
I catch myself sometimes, creeping back into that old familiar relationship with change. But then, I often catch myself just dealing with it. Realizing it's part of how things go. And honestly, when we loosen up the grip, God can present some amazing changes that can completely turn your world upside down in such a joyful way.
So like I said some of our changes have been very materialistic...
Such as saying goodbye to my 2-door Honda Accord of six years.
Justin wanted to take a pic of me in my car saying goodbye. |
We finally got the guts to cancel cable. Love that our bill has now been shaved by over $50 (um yes, and we had no bells and whistles...crazy!), but it's taking some adjusting for sure. We are learning how to get very creative when trying to adjust the antenna for the digital channels. Sometimes Justin has to remind me that throwing the antenna across the room will probably only make matters worse. ha! And I'm finding great places like Hulu to catch up on shows I miss without cable. But in all honestly, we're really just learning how to be more productive with our time. So grown-up of us!
This sweet pup is now a "big boy" and doesn't stay in his crate all day while we're at work. He was crate-trained when we first brought him home and went straight to his crate the first night we had him. So he loves his crate, but it's just not practical anymore. Especially with the size of crate we have to have for him. His crate is in the office...which we think will be turned into the nursery. It's too big to have anywhere else on the main floor of the house and we don't want to have to go down to the basement each time we leave to put him up. So we've transitioned this crate-trained sweetie into a free-roaming dog. He loves it and I'm pretty sure he does the above all.day.long.
And then of course our big life-changing change that we have welcomed with such joy is the news that our home will be filled with all things girl from here on out. Of course as a guy, Justin is getting used to this news. I think he's already scared to death she'll get her heart broken and that she'll be fragile from day one. He'll make the best daddy of a little girl (he'll make a great daddy no matter what)...but he's so sweet and gentle. So even if she's fragile, she'll have a daddy that will handle her heart with such care and concern. I already love hearing him say her sweet name.
So those are just a few of the the changes going on around here. And depending on the change...like it or not...I'm welcoming it. As I'm sure I'll welcome many others as our newlywed lives transition into new mommy and daddy lives.
There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heavens.
Ecclesiastes 3:1
what a great post cait! change is so hard. i for sure am not the best at it either. but it sounds like you are doing awesome! :) kudos for cutting the cable bill! i realllly want to do that someday. husband is NOT for that at all! haha! i'm so excited for you guys! :)
ReplyDeleteIs it weird that this post made me want to cry? We are the same when it comes to change. We aren't friends. But, you're right. The older I get, the more I realize that it isn't avoidable nor should I try to avoid God-given change. He has big plans. Your family is just so sweet. Thinking about you!
ReplyDeletewe are thinking of cancelling cable and getting unlimited netflix for 8$ a month...i dont know if we can pull the trigger
ReplyDeletei was going to say what Emily said...we love netflix. you can stream it through a wii or playstation and they have lots of show series to choose from!
ReplyDeletei definitely know what you mean about change...it is not fun! i'm not a huge fan either, in most circumstances! God will bless you though!
So similar to everything we have going on, I could have almost wrote this!! Except I'm not ready to part with our cable ;) But isn't it the greatest when you hear your Hubby say her name?! I love that feeling :)
ReplyDeleteLove your post! I cried when we traded off my 'old' car back in 2006 too..like a big BABY!! I'm pretty sure the saleslady thought I was nuts...but like you said..we create so many memories based around things..even if they are 'materialistic' its hard not to be emotional!
ReplyDeleteI don't do well with change either, but I KNOW that God gives us the strength to go through it. This post reminded me of that song, "All of my life, in every season, you are still God, I have a reason to sing. I have a reason to worship." I am so happy for you and can't wait to hear more about your journey through pregnancy and all. Down here in Charleston none of my close friends are prego. They all just had babies back in February, so it's so nice to be able to share like experiences with someone. So happy for you Cait!
ReplyDeleteJust found your blog... i was struck by the fact that SOMEONE out there is aspiring to live the simple life. My husband and I are desperately trying to live a life for God and a life about loving people. This can be very difficult living in America- but I admire your determination. You're an inspiration!
ReplyDeleteAdeline will be the best change you have ever experienced!
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